downsizing

I love breaking in shoes. especially the blisters. /sarcasm

I have a really bad habit of hanging on to clothes that don't fit. "i'll lose weight and be able to wear them again" which would be fine except I leave them in my closet and try them on ALL the time. and then I get disappointed and go eat an ice cream sundae or something. AWESOME. so I've cleaned my closet out. anything and everything that doesn't fit. (which leaves my closet looking pretty pitiful. ) ken, a couple friends, and I are heading to the flea market on Sunday to try and get rid of a couple things. anything I don't sell is getting donated on the way home. which means even more motivation for losing! CLOTHES SHOPPING!!!!! seriously, love it!

well anyway, I've lost 4.4 pounds! woo! totally makes the blisters worth it!! I've been going to the gym only a couple days a week, but I've been doing Zumba (thanks YouTube!) at home when I don't go.

hope everyone has an amazing day! Im heading to the kitchen to prep dinner for tomorrow!

xo

presents!

hello! happy friday! just popping in I say my new running shoes arrived! and I'm stoked to try them out in the morning! hope you have an amazing weekend!

xo

little by little

i'm down to 281.3. woo!

the hospital has this program called lighten up 4 life. it's a competition to lose weight and be healthy! you form teams of four and have 3 months to lose as much as you can healthily. (did I just make that word up? anyway...). so four of us signed up and I'm excited! winning team gets $100 gift cards. love the extra incentive!!

at the gym today I hit a personal best and I'm pretty excited about that!

well hopefully you see more of me... but no promises..

what does that say?

well since my last post, I've gained weight. 

when I started my new job I knew that changes would come.  however, I didn't exactly think they would be on the scale.  I never realized how much moving I did at the restaurant.  of course I knew I was running my butt off but I didn't realized quite how much I suppose.  so when I changed jobs, I changed nothing else.  big mistake...

I decided one day to weight myself while at work.  I go into triage, turn on the scale, step on... what? 298.1, by far the scariest number I've ever seen.  I REFUSE to be 300 pounds.  so since discovering such a scary number on the scale I've joined a gym, tried to eat better and have lost 8.5 pounds.  side note: I actually lost 11 pounds, but then I went on vacation.  :o/

so even though I'm an awful blogger, we are going to try this again......

small victories

Woohoo!  I lost 2.5 pounds!  Not quite my goal, but I didn't work out at all this week.  So I'm content with my results. 

This weekend I'm going to the beach and I'm hoping I can control myself.  Haha. 
My poor hubby has had to fend for himself for pretty much every meal.  I'm not quite adjusted to working third shift yet and my house is suffering.  And this week I picked up two shifts so I've worked the last 11 days.  Woo.  I'm excited to see my check!  Well now that I've gotten completely off topic I'm going to bed. :o)

until next time...

the plan

Hubs and I decided that we are going to do Weight Watchers again.  We've done it before and lost a combined 60 pounds, and almost seven years ago I did it by myself and lost 50 pounds.  It's the easiest and best diet for our lifestyle.  He usually works 1p-9p and I just started at the hospital, working 11p-7a.  It's been very hard adjusting to working third shift, I never have before and it has made eating right hard.  I know that it is just a matter of sliding my eating times around a little bit, but it is really strange to wake up at 8p and eat breakfast when hubs is eating dinner.  I am getting used to it though, it shouldn't be too long and I will be eating ice cream (Skinny Cow of course) at 7a!  

Hubs borrowed the Insanity workout from a friend.  However, we are not starting that right away.  We NEVER exercise, and Insanity is really intense.  I've done the fit test and I thought I was going to die, seriously.  We bought the Wii Fit last year, so we are starting with that and working our way up.

I've been very bad this weekend.  Monday-Friday, I did great.  Saturday, we went to the fair, and Sunday we had company over to watch the game.  So, I didn't lose anything and I am still at 276 pounds.  I'm thankful I did not gain after this weekend of weakness. However, it is a new week and my goal is to lose at least 4 pounds this week. 

I want to lose 40 pounds by the end of the year and 136 pounds total.  I know that I can achieve both of these goals.  I just have to keep moving forward and not let anything set me back.

Until next time...


Also, thank you for all the encouraging words!  It's great to know that I have so much love and support!!  :o)

the beginning

I have always struggled with my weight, I will lose 20 pounds and then hit a plateau.  Then I will be stuck on the plateau for months.  This time will be different.  How?  Well I'll figure that out along the way.  Welcome to my totally candid, super personal and occasionally frustrating journey.  :o)

Stats:height; 5'6"
weight: 276 lbs
BMI: 44.39
bust: 50"
waist: 47"
hips: 55"
thighs: 29"
arms: 17"

 And now for the unflattering before pictures; front, back and side.

Now, for my promise to you.  I promise to blog at least once a week.  I will update my weight weekly, measurements monthly and pictures occasionally. 


love,

nicole